Thoughts of laughter

I sit here up later than I should be. I was looking at all the people getting married, engaged, and other love covered events and I keep thinking about being alone. Half of the time when I get like than I don't quite know what to do with myself. I wonder if I'm ever going to be happy and in love. I just get the feeling that I'm going to have to wait and try harder. I fear I'll become the girls from He's just not that in to you. I don't want to misread the signs any more. I'm sick of thinking someone has feelings for me and then it turns out he doesn't and never did. I sick of this and I want to cry.

I guess thats really it.... more later I suppose... I'm going to bed...